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How Consistency can overcome Self-doubt...A Mindset Shift

My Covid journey is a big lesson in

1. Shit happens that you cannot control,

2. Your body will give you signals to slow down. listen to them

3. Consistency can help even when you are at your lowest ebb and self-doubt is consuming you.

When I contracted Covid last October I really was not expecting to be out of action for six months. If you told me last January that I would be thriving and back to my own self by July, I simply would not have believed you. It was bad. My daily healthy habits went to zero

Let me take you back to summer 2021 where everything was full steam ahead. The Corporate to Calm podcast had launched and was growing steadily, my Pilates business thriving, and I was pursuing other projects. The world was my oyster, and I was grabbing my opportunities with both hands. I was in a wonderful place, an amazing space full of positivity and ambition. I was developing as an entrepreneur and had the habits and business to prove it.

Cut to start October and I was about six weeks back teaching face to face in two locations with amazing clients. It was Monday morning; I was catching up on admin and I got a text from the HSE that I’d been a close contact. I thought to myself, no way, I felt fine, a bit tired but sure that wasn’t out of the ordinary. I was teaching 35 clients that evening so obviously the responsible thing to do was test. I was so shocked when it was positive. After that it was like a snowball effect, I started to feel rough, a head cold & achy. My positive PCR came back within 24 hours and within 12 hours of that I’d lost my sense of taste and smell. In fairness that was the extent of it. I stayed in my room for 10 days, the kids hugged me through the door and my husband looked after me. I worked on the podcast, the businesses and I really felt okay. I am vaccinated, so I can only assume that helped.

My taste came back after two weeks, and I returned to teaching after my isolation period was complete. A week or so into my recovery I started to feel tired, I had brain fog and I could not eat and talk at the same time so needless to say a meal with me was extremely uneventful. It was like my body was trying to digest the food and could not cope with speech at the same time, this lasted for about six weeks. My taste came back but my sense of smell was just funny, all I could smell was burning ashtrays, it reminded me when I was in lounge girl as a teenager, and I remember cleaning them out with a dirty rag. I was teaching 3 to 4 classes a week with 2 of them on Monday evening. The combination of talking for two hours and demonstrating the moves left me absolutely exhausted for Tuesday and Wednesday. This was so frustrating; I am such an active person. I live to move, walk & go to the gym. Exercise is a part of me and to have that kind of taken away from me is frustrating. I could not move. I did not work out for four months no Pilates, nothing.

I fulfilled my obligations with my clients up to Christmas then I stopped teaching and I haven't taught since. I don't know if I'll ever teach again. I have only said that aloud to a handful of people. This ties in with my point about self-doubt, I slowed down, my fitness wasn’t maintained, and I began to worry about my business and my ability to run it. The only thing that remained consistent in my life was the Corporate to Calm podcast, I could not rely on my body, but I could rely on my podcast.

It was a nightmare and I tried to put a brave face on it. No one had a clue really, that inside I was down. I was devastated that I didn't have the energy for me, I didn't have the energy for my kids, for my business. I had lost the grá for my fitness business and I simply stayed consistent with the podcast. I wasn't focused on growing the podcast, I was just interviewing people getting the podcasts out there. I’d do a little bit of promotion which wasn't fair to those guests either. It was a challenging time, and I just went into myself. I put on maybe 10 pounds and I didn't care. I didn't care because there was so much else going on. We talk about body confidence and being happy in your skin and this too was taken out of my control. I like my food; I enjoy my food, but I also like to know that I can keep it balance with regular exercise. It’s disheartening when you can't get 15 minutes around the block without losing your breath. My body simply stopped. I went with it, I slowed everything right down and I focused on me. I focused on working on me and trying to figure out this self-doubt. How can I become happier in myself, believe in myself again?

In March I gave up alcohol, which is a whole other story and there were fresh shoots were growing and I was seeing hope. A little energy was coming back, I was following all my own advice that I’d give to clients, magnesium, vitamin d & c, no screens in the bedroom. Sleep was still eluding me, but I was trying. I was in a positive place compared to the past 6 months and then I got Covid again. I was subsequently catapulted back into this COVID drama again. It was horrific. I was so upset that I happened again but listen that's life. I’ve had my booster and not a bother, like a head cold again. It’s a few months later and I honestly believe that second bout of COVID got me over the first. I haven’t investigated it because let’s face it life is depressing enough but that second round of Covid lit a fire in me and I’m not looking back.

What I did for me while I was recovering from Covid?

1. I tried Reiki before Christmas and have maintained that habit. Reiki is mind-blowing and mind opening for me. As I say Dominiquea Kearns who is my Reiki queen, it is like meditation on steroids, I get bizarre and wonderful ideas while I am in a room with her.

2. I joined the Innovation Academy in UCD to help me with the podcast. I have a habit of not asking for help and I needed help focusing on and growing the podcast. I’m completing a Professional Diploma in Innovation, Creativity and Leadership. This has been a huge part of my growth and wanting to move forward. I applied for it through Springboard and cannot recommend it highly enough. I want this community to grow. I want to help people and I want to share my story. This this is only one chapter of my story. I want you to know that it's OK to take a break, that it's OK to feel some doubt but you and only you can get yourself out of it. You must ask for help.

3. I started listening to Mel Robbins books, podcasts. Her two books, The 5 Second Rule and The High 5 Habit are simply life-changing. I am a self-confessed cynic, and this is something that I have worked on over the past five years. After the pandemic hit, I started listening to Mel Robbins podcast and I was like Oh my God I can't take this positivity because I just wasn't there myself, sorry Mel. Then I was ready to hear her message and I am so grateful for it.

Courage is power and everyday I use my courage to ask for help and in turn I want to help others with my story and with my guest’s stories because that's what the Corporate to Calm podcast is about. Sharing experiences and using other experiences, mistakes, triumphs to inspire you to take a leap. Whether it's a change in career, pursuing that promotion or you are looking are looking for answers & inspiration on how to open their own business

If you are in need of inspiration, if you are finding it hard to move forward to move forward with your life please listen to an episode, send me a mail at because I have been where you are. You don't have to be sad in your job, you don't have to be unhappy in your job, you don’t have to have dread walking into the office or logging on. Listen to your body, your gut, your mind, your heart and take that first step which could be life changing.

The work I have done on me on my mind over the past six months, five years is life changing that's all I can say it's like changing and staying consistent is the only thing that got me through. I just want to show you that it doesn't take dynamism to move forward. It simply takes courage; it simply takes you. Stay consistent, do the work, be courageous and the self-doubt will play less and less of a role in your progression.

The future is bright, and I am excited.



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